my new xanga has officially kikd off... since as of last nite i have a permanent residence.... with my dad...

i guess i should be happy but i dunno if its guilt or just feeling bad for my mom... but i feel bad. Cause i could never imagine how hard it must be to give up her first daughter. We have sum good n bad times n we had a awsome relationship. I know Jen could never ever take my moms place n i would never allow Jen to take my moms place. I have a feeling that i will never have anyone to have fun with like the fun i have with my mom n that really sucks. Im just gona have a dad n step mom... w/e who said this move would be fun? I thought i would sink into a deep depression at Hawaii... but i think i am gona sink in to a depession over here...

if anyone cares about the new xanga... comment n tell me if ya want the link cause i sure as hell aint postin it on the net. n madre if u want it u can have it too. just trying to protect my site from my dad... n other snitches

KaZ

veryone take a moment n watch these videos...

n then question... do u really wana wear fur... n do u wana continue eating meat?

is fur pretty now?
what if that was ur dog or cat? would u allow that to happen?

well... i made a HUGE mistake cause now i cant see my bf be4 he goes to damn soccer camp...

This morning around 3am i got droppd off a special 'package' by a good friend that lives by me. He gave me a kittin cause i felt really bad about his situatuion. If he didnt get rid off al his animals he was gona get evicted so i decided to try to help him as much as possible... being the good friend that i am... so i took in the kittin that ment most to him. In his words "he loved that cat so he is going to give it to someone else he loves" ,which is so sweet really. So i kept that cat n got like 1 hour of sleep. My dad got pissd about the kittin cause he just all in a ll hates cats n i wouldnt dare tell him were i got it from, cause he wouldnt like the response i gave him. But now lets just say Nikki has the kittin n its doing good. At least i can still see it n always have a a memory of the guy in the neigborhood whenever i come voer nikkis. I guess it wasnt really worth risking seeing my bf over... n im really upset about that... everythings always my fault.

Today is my lil sisters bday... woohoo... shes turnin 2 so that should be interesting.

Im really tierd n im over Nikkis right now watching the kittin n stuff.

update whever

KaZ

PS: <3<3**Im sorry Babe**<3<3

Currently Listening M.I.A.M.I. By Pitbull see related

- Toma

damn... pmsing sucks ass...

im over my dads again n the pressure is once again on about Hawaii... im pmsing n i dont like being yelld at during this time of the month. Im so emotional n fragile at this time n being yelld at just makes me cry alot... so ive been having breakdowns today... fun...

Ive decided that if i live in Columbia then im gona join the soccer team... so im gona be like trying to get all ready n shit. lol maybe ill actually run!!!! (oh shit!) i cant wait. I  Soccer

Im actually considering Hawaii... but still i really would prefer Columbia cause i just seriously dont wana leave everyone behind... thinking of this just is one of the reasons ive been breaking down... i was talking to Nicole on the fone about this n my voice became all messd up n my eyes watered... this is like a horribly  sensitive subject.

ive been so tierd all day... n my lil sisters bday is Saterday... so hopefully it isnt a LONG time cause Nicole wants to do a mall thing with Zoe n other kids...

kk thats all i got rite now...

KaZ

PS. as soon as i move ill be makin a new xanga... or like i say...ill be beinging a new chapter of my life

piccys!!! (gatta give ya links cause the copy n paste dont work)

http://tinypic.com/a0jtir.jpg sister... n big... purty hat
http://tinypic.com/a0jtro.jpg my beatiful baby sister... aka my baby
http://tinypic.com/a0jtyh.jpg the best fucking drink in the world beside so.co n jack d
http://tinypic.com/a0ju5z.jpg ugh me....

new HIM video